Angels / Francie Perea (Friend of family )

Three years in heaven and a painful life here on earth.  Yes dear Shawntae, even though I never met you, I know the pain all to well.  You left behind a beautiful family that hurts every hour of the day for you. I don't know why God has chosen us, but he has his reasons.  I have my angel Mathew.  And your family has you.  The tears flow so freely, leaving a bitter sting to the heart.  And yet we are forced to walk the remaining years without our precious angels.  So for now the memories are going to have to be good enough.  Shawntae, keep giving the signs to your family that you are with them.  They do see them and they do feel you.  I am praying for all of you and sending my love.  God Bless you all.  Love, Francie, George, Crystal and Angel Mathew.

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its so hard  / Ajia Graham (none)

i'm ajia graham and i just wanted to say that i'm sorry for her death.i'm trying my best to stop the choking game from killin even more. but i just dont get why would anyone come up with a game that kills. i cry at times because i get mad at it. but i remember where she is and i settle down. i've told my whole class and teacher about the choking game. my teacher heard about it and now my class knows about it. they say that the game is stupid and why would anyone play it. i don't know. rite now i guess i'm to young to understand. i don't know.i'm only a 11yr old brightskinned african american who dont understand anything right now. rite now i'm kinda jelious of her cause she gets to meet my grandma who i've never met before. ha ha.

but please don't be sad. just think of the great times you had with her. think of the positives. you know shes with God rite now and she has no more pain or regrets. i know she misses you so much that it hurts. i pray to God to cease the exsitance of the choking game and to spare other lives.may she rest in peace and don't worry, you'll see her again. all you have to do is to follow the road God laid for us until you reach the end. and guess what shes waiting right now. i know it.

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Miss You Soooo Much  / Nina Glenda (Godmother)

Hi Hita,

It is so hard for me to believe that it has been 3 years today with out you, I miss your smile, I miss your hugs, I miss you and Sierra getting in to trouble together..I Miss You!!!

 

I Love You Hita!!!

 

Love,

Nina Glenda

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3rd Year in Heaven  / Mom

My Shawntae,

How grand heaven must be with you there another year!  As for us here on earth, we look to another day without you with the hope & faith in God that we will be with you again.

I love you and miss you mi hita.  My heart aches with the same pain that it did on the day that you left us.  God must have a divine plan for all of us.  He will sustain me and carry me through these years until I can see you again.

With all my heart and soul,

Mom

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Your anniversary  / Dominqiue/Antionette

Tomorrow will be a sad day for anyone who had the pleasure of having you in their life.  You brought joy to everyone. Our thoughts and prayers our with you and your family......

 

Love Always,

 

Dominique & Antionette

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Thinking of you  / Marlene Thomas (cousin)

Dearest Shawntae,

Thinking of you as your special day approaches.

I remember when I took Miriam to your birthday party at Planet Fun and how much fun you had.  We hope that there is lots of balloons and lots of cake for you to eat tomorrow in heaven. Happy, Happy, Birthday!!!

Love, Marlene, Cameron, and Miriam

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Miss You  / Dina Jaramillo (Friend)

Hi, Shawntae!

Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and your family. You are truly missed but I know you are in Heaven watching over your family.  I still remember when you're mom would pick you up at basketball camp and bring you to work.  I was pregnant at the time & you ALWAYS shared your snack with me and my baby.  I'm always talking about what a great kid you were so if you're ears are ringing, its just me!  I talk to your mom when we get the chance.  I know she misses you terribly but she's doing good.  Take care, Tae and know that you're missed and loved very much.

 

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hi / Sierra Chavez (sister/ cousin )
hey sis its me sorry i havent wrote to u in awhile its just so hard i miss u so much im try to be strong. Well i moved in to my apartment i wish u were here to see it its really nice but its missing u coming over to spend the nite remember when we were younger u said u would move in with me. I fell like ur missing so much but i know ur not cuz ur watching everything from up above i just wish i had some kind of sign that u are ok i was suppose to be there to protect u. We were suppose to do so much together plzz never think i forgot about u even if i tried i couldnt i love u so much plzz watch over all the family. The walk is all for u friday plzz give me the strength to finish it well ttyl i love u always and forever sis aka chicken head lol love always ur god sister sierra chavez xoxo Close

Miss You Lots  / Nina Glenda

Hi Hita,

Well Sierra is getting read to move out  I wish you could be here to help pack.  As we move stuff around I see little traces of when you would come and spend the night. Like holes in my wall, remember those? I was thinking of all the times you would come and spend the night and I would be yelling at you and Sierra to be quiet and go to sleep and you too would just start laughing louder. I also was remembering you hiding behind a door or wall and jumping out and scaring me.  I miss you More then Words will express. Please Help Sierra while she goes through this big step in her life,watch over her from heaven..Ok Hita i will go for now talk to you again soon.. I Love You...  Nina Glenda

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Sorry / Kaitlynn ------- (Visitor)

shawntae and family,

5 boys in my class this week played "the choking game" Luckily they are still safe. One of htem was my best friend, which I was ery dissapointed in. But, Shawntae is still in your hearts and watchin over you. Everyday. She still sees you thinking about her, crying for her. I hope things get better.                                                                         

Kaitlynn       

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my dedication to you shawntae  / Marissa Valencia (cousin)
hey shawntae its your lil cousin.... i just wanna let you know that you are always in my heart and i am always thinking of you. i also want to let you know that i have been playing basketball like we usually do and i wanna let you know that i am the only kid in the 8th grade in bernalillo to make it to the varsity high school team while still in middle school.... i have been working for this since the 6th grade just for you and i want you to know that everything i accomplish in my whole life is all for you...... love your lil cousin
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We miss you and love you!  / Mom
My sweet angel Shawntae, I cannot believe today is two years since you've been gone.  I love you and miss you with all my heart and soul!  My pain will never be relieved until the day I can be with you again.  Until then, I will cherish your memories and your life.  You are a beautiful, amazing daughter and your life here on earth was too short.  Close

WHAT A BEAUTIFUL, YOUNG WOMAN!  / SHARI, ANGEL MOM TO YANNICK WHITEHEAD (VISITOR)
PRAYING THAT, THE BEAUTIFUL MEMORIES YOU HAVE OF SHAWNTAE WILL HELP MEND YOUR BROKEN HEARTS.  MY SON PASSED AWAY APRIL 5, 2005, AGE 16, FROM THE CHOKING GAME. I KNOW YOUR PAIN ONLY TOO WELL. MAY GOD BLESS YOU!

SHAWNTAE;

THERE'S A SPECIAL PLACE WITHIN OUR HEARTS
THAT ONLY YOU CAN FILL
BECAUSE WE LOVE YOU DEARLY
BECAUSE, WE ALWAYS WILL
OF ALL THAT LIFE HAS GIVEN US,
AND ALL THAT'S LEFT TO DO
WE NEVER HAD A GREATER GIFT,
THAN THE SHORT YEARS, WE HAD WITH YOU.

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Missing you  / Patrick Sanchez (Dad)

4th July is so hard without you and I know that you loved everything about it, family, friends and the fireworks. PJ, mom and dad light a bunch of fireworks for you, not even the rain or the wind stop us from doing it. I know you were watching and enjoying it the whole time! We love you and miss you and another holiday passes by w/out you and it will never be the same.

-Dad

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Is it You?  / Mom
Shawntae,  is it you in the beautiful butterfly, hummingbird or the breathtaking sunset?  Is it you on the phone or the alarm?  Is it you that remains in every heart and soul that you came in contact with during your lifetime on earth?

It's you that has a part of my heart and soul.  It's you that is in my heart and in my mind every minutes of everyday.  It's you that I long to see, hear, touch and hold.  It's you that I cannot wait to see again.  And if it takes me an eternity or more, I will find you!

I love you sweet girl,

Mom
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So Very Sorry for Your Loss  / Melissa Eiler (Visitor~Daughter of Irwin & Renee Eiler )

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Seeing You  / Carla (Mom)
Shawntae, we went to camping with your Aunties and there was a girl there that reminded me of you.  This was the first time that I have seen anyone, besides your brother, that reminded me of you.  She has a lot of your mannerisms and from far away, I could see you.     I could close my eyes and pretend for a moment.

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To Shawntae,  / Danielle Nunez (Best Friend )
Shawntae not one day has passed that you have not been in my head. It has been two years and I still miss u as if it was yesterday. It hasn't got that much easier without u because everything just reminds me of u. People told me as time went on the pain would slowly go away but Shawntae it hasn't. I love u with all my heart and would still do anything to have u back here with us. I can't believe anyone who would think i had something to do with it or that I knew something  That makes me so sad when people tell me about the rumors that went on at Valley around the time everything happened. I mean like it wasn't already hard enough?You mean so much to me. Shawntae I love u ok and nothing, ever will change that. I know we both know the truth that nothing was said to me. Yes everyone might have thought that because we did talk that night but not for long. U said u would call me right back and never did. I would give anything in the world to hear your voice one last time or give you one last hug. Shawntae I'd do anythin to be able to talk to u and look into your eyes as u always understood me, like how no one else can. I'm praying for u Shawntae I LOVE U SO MUCH 
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I miss you  / Desiree Reynolds (Child hood best friend )
Shawntae i miss you sooooo much. I hate that we lost touch i remeber all the slumber partys we had growing up. I love you soo much and i hope to see you again one day. Love you always
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HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY  / Sierra Chavez (sister cousin )

hey shawntae aka chicken head meber i use to call u that and after every e-mail i would put a chicken next to ur name lol inside joke  its me i havent wrote 2 in ahwhile. i miss u so much sometimes i feel i should be sader than i am i havent cryed for u in a long time i dont know if that is normal me and u were so close iv miss do things with u. happy last 16th birthday i know u were looking foward to that day for a long time but i know u had fun where ever u are i was looking foward to it 2. remember when me and u were fighting at grandmas house and u pushed me off the end of the couch and i knocked over the plants and grandma chased us and push our noses up that was funny. also remeber when i toke u 2 hinkle and we played games all day long,. oh here is my favortie remeber when we went bowling and u through the ball and it landed in the guter but bounced back and u got a strick that was crazy oh cuz i miss u so much everytime i go over it is just so empty with out u running to me like u always did i miss ur hugs ur laugh and everything about u they way u said my name i swear no could say it like u it was just diffrent the way u would say it well i better let u go know i know u have tones more letters to read i love and miss u more than anything .
love always you sister 
sierra chavez

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